Wednesday, February 27, 2008

What I can't get out of my head this week...

Share In The Blame - Caedmon's Call

Don’t blame the bullet for the wars you have sown
Don’t blame the winter when you’ve forgotten your coat
When you make the same deals for a hundred years
and you wanna make a change
You gotta hold up the mirror and share in the blame

Don’t blame your brother for the color of his skin
don’t blame your neighbor for the house he lives in
from the same cloth, we are made of, we are just the same
you gotta hold up the mirror and share in the blame

(chorus)
like a coming of age, I am learning how to say
all the failures I’m dragging behind
Finding freedom to speak, freedom to release
Oh tonight I wanna make peace with you

Don’t blame the writer for the doubts in your head
Don’t blame the preacher for the lovers in your bed
When you find out that the world is round, everything is rearranged
You gotta hold up the mirror, and share in the blame

(chorus)

Don’t blame the president, don’t blame the king
Don’t blame your history for what might have been
we will be free where the grass is green and the lion is tame
if we just hold up the mirror now and share in the blame

This song is off their new CD Overdressed. The whole CD is wonderful, if you are looking for some new tunes I would recommend it.

Friday, February 22, 2008

Whew...

Where has February gone? In the midst of all the craziness I haven't (well we haven't, it is still weird for me to talk in we sense) been able to keep up with our new blog. Here are some highlights from the last couple of weeks:

21 Day Challenge Highlights
- Jesus burned with passion for the church (John 2:17)
- Jesus is bold...
- Jesus didn't try to hide who he was, He is the Good Shepherd (John 10)
- Reading all the fulfilled prophecies blew my mind
- John 15: 9-10"I've loved you the way my Father has loved me. Make yourselves at home in my love. If you keep my commands, you'll remain intimately at home in my love. That's what I've done—kept my Father's commands and made myself at home in his love.
- Jesus cooked the disciples breakfast (John 21)

These are just a few of the many thing I pulled from the Gospel of John.

Friends:
I had a few friends from high school come up a couple of weekends ago. It was such a blessing to see them all. We have got to see each other more in the last six months ,because of all this wedding nonsense, than in the last 3 years. We want to keep it that way. Nothing is better than a good chick flick, pizza machine and chocolate fondue, yum!

Finished:
Last night, Jenny, Hannah, Erin and I finished our first bible study book (I say first because I hope there are many more to come). God so is good and wise. I started my internship praying to be challenged, praying I would still have community even though most of my time would be spent without my normal crowd, praying for a small group that I wasn't going to teach. He provided three of my best friends to spend one night a week with while looking into our purposes. We are all in different places right now and he used our different experiences to challenge us and create great conversations. It only took us 5 months to meet 8 times but we made it!

Started:
Small groups at UIS started a couple weeks ago. I am teaching a relationship study with my friend, Amelia and David. We have some great resources: Louie Giglio's audio series Boy Meets Girl and Craig Groeschel's book Going All The Way. They are funny, truthful, and challenging. More on that later...

Finally, Retreat!

This weekend is the Illinois Campus Ministry Retreat at Lake Springfield complete with Don Chafer of Waterdeep. David and I are both excited to hear some great music but more than that we are excited to retreat. My prayers this week have been, please let us feel the retreat. I am doing the registration for all the campus ministries for this retreat. I was worried at first that this was my time to shine and if I mess up they will think I am weird and my dreams of campus ministry will be washed away in a single weekend...yes I know it is silly. However, I decided this week that I have a choice going into this weekend. I can go in on edge or I can enjoy doing this organizational work (which I love) and then leave it at the door as I walk into the retreat. I pray this will be a great time to connect with my students and that I will be refreshed with them.

Ok this is really long...I only have one more thing. My amazing, husband bought me tickets to go see Derek Webb and Caedmon's Call on Saturday, April 19 in Chicago. I was so excited and he had all the CD's in my car so I could start jammin' out now...alas two days later all my dreams of musical wonders were crushed. I can't go that day. If anyone is interested in the tix let us know.

Monday, February 4, 2008

el desafĂ­o

or, "the challenge" according to an online translator. The 21 day challenge is still underway so I thought I'd post some thoughts from the latest reading.

As I've been reading John, I'm continually being struck by how Jesus was so much about God. I know this sounds pretty simple, but when I think about it in my life, I have this view of Jesus in mind a lot of the time as a rule-keeping, rule-teaching guy who is pretty lame and doesn't do much except frown and say "follow God" and "for God so loved the world..." The more I read John, the more God continues to show that Jesus was simply and wholly about God. God Himself. The real, living and active God. The One He continues to say is who we should love, and honestly, might just find we want and need to love Him anyway. Not some set of rules or certain actions.

So I was reading John 10 with that in mind. Jesus is talking about sheep and the master. A couple things that hit me

The sheep know their master's voice.

Just like Jesus has been saying that the ones who will choose to follow Him are those who are really desiring to know, love and experience the presence of the living God. He keeps telling the Pharisees that the reason they don't recognize Jesus as being from God is because they don't really have any idea what God is like. They haven't really desired to experience and love God as much as earn some sort of recognition for good works that God claims to despise.

The shephard lays down his life for the sheep.

I'm not sure I have(I don't know if I ever will) ever understood Jesus' sacrafice. I can't put a theological statement around it and I can't seem to fit words together that describe what it means. Every time I return back to His willingness to die for His sheep, I find something else to consider. Is this what people mean when they say the "depth of His love"?

This time I thought about His death. I thought about it in the context of the recent loss of my sister and last week of my grandma. It's not a secret to anyone ever that it hurts really bad when people die. It makes me wonder as I'm typing this just how much pain God felt about His Son dying.

The sheep flee from other voices

Jesus describes His sheep as being those who recognize their master's voice. They are able to distinguish between the real master and the other voices.

Do I know my Master's voice? Do I really recognize God when He speaks or moves or acts? What does He sound like? How do I hear it? Am I listening? After writing these questions that came from my journal, I thought of another question--How can I listen better?

I think my prayer right now is that God would just help me in the midst of all my doubts, questions and challenges to hear His voice and know Him above everything and everyone else.

have an awesome night!!!
-dave

Sunday, February 3, 2008

I want to wash my hands, my face and hair with snow






Ok not really....but I did want to play in the snow!

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

8 Things

Gretchen tagged me in this blog forward...sounded fun so here it goes!

8 Things I'm Passionate about

David, my husband
Jesus
Learning, anything from finally learning how to use my macbook to learning more about my faith
Becoming a servant
Traveling
Reading, I love reading and usually have 3 or 4 books started at once
Campus Ministry
Pictures

8 Things I Want to do Before I Die
Give away more than I keep (I think I will keep this from Gretchen because I really like it)
Travel to another country with David (we are really excited about going to Kenya and we would like to go to India)
Spend a summer away from home
Have children (including adoption)
Read the Bible through in a year
Learn more about my new sister
Own a house (or live in some place where we don't pay rent)
Learn to play the piano

8 Things I Often Say
(wow, this is difficult)
I love you
Honey, why are you doing that? (that one I need to work on...)
Tell me every detail
Tell me the best part of your day so far (I like to start meetings this way)
No I am not actually in college anymore, I work with college students :)
Are you tired of hot pockets? (making David's lunch in the morning)
I'm cold!
Where are my keys and cell phone?

8 TV Shows I Recently Watched
( I don't watch much TV...but I catch a show every once in a while over lunch or chillin' with my homies)
Will and Grace
Project Runway
Scrubs
NFL
CNN (I have been trying to keep up with the presidential debates)
The Office
Ace of Cakes
Good Eats ( I think that is what it is called...)


8 Songs I Never Tire of Listening To
Share the Well- Caedmon's Call
If I'm Brave- Ali Rogers
Anything David Crowder Band
Wicked Soundtrack
Any worship song David plays on the guitar
Christmas Music
I want you to be my love- Over the Rhine
Anything by the Beatles


8 Things that Attract me to my Friends
Openness and Vulnerability
I can call them anytime
Randomness
Their willingness to tell me every detail
Being able to laugh and cry in the same conversation
They challenge me to grow
Grace
The fact that we can talk about Jesus


8 Things I Learned in 2007
How to plan a wedding
What it is to grieve
How to move off campus and get an apartment
The joys and fears of support raising
That I can write if I trust and obey
Not to be nervous when talking to big groups of people, just be myself :)
My husband is an amazing cook
Grocery shopping on a budget

Now lets see here I will tag Jenny , Erin , and Hannah

Have a great day!

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Prepare the way

Passage: John 3:27-30 (New Living Translation)
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John replied, “No one can receive anything unless God gives it from heaven. 28 You yourselves know how plainly I told you, ‘I am not the Messiah. I am only here to prepare the way for him.’ 29 It is the bridegroom who marries the bride, and the best man is simply glad to stand with him and hear his vows. Therefore, I am filled with joy at his success. 30 He must become greater and greater, and I must become less and less.

Thoughts: I am amazed at John the Baptist's humility. He knew his place, he knew the role that God had planned for him and he wanted to live it to the fullest extent. John was here to prepare the way for Jesus and he set about doing. He preached to people. He told them about Jesus. He never took any credit for being great because he knew the one that was so much greater than him was here. I love how in my Bible this section is labeled John the Baptist exalts Jesus. That is just what he did! He knew that his attention and status as crazy religious guy was going to be pushed aside for attention for Jesus. He says it so humbly, without trying to cling to his status or ego, "He must become greater and greater and I must become less and less." In my life I want to prepare the way. I want to do my part in preparing for Jesus' return. I want to live a life that shows Jesus to others and I want to not be afraid to tell people about the Messiah.

Prayer: Lord Jesus you are King of Kings and Lord of Lords. Thank you for being our Savior. I want John the Baptist's words to be prayer. I want you to become greater and greater in my life and for me to decrease. Please show me how I can be preparing the way for your return right now. Open my eyes. Praise you and in your name I pray. Amen

Peace out, Lindsey

Saturday, January 26, 2008

The 21 Day Challenge

Hello again!
It has been a while since I've posted on here. UIS is in full swing again and CSF has another new beginning--another chance to draw closer to God, to see Him work and grow in His love seen through Jesus as a community. I'm so excited about what God has already been doing on campus this semester.

One way that He has been teaching us on Friday nights is through the sermon series right now. It's a three week series called "FedUp". It's all about growing up in Christ--looking at three basic stages of growth in our relationship with God and finding ways that we can "grow up" in the sense of drawing closer to God and away from the things that keep us from Him.

Last night, as Linds taught about adolescence, she challenged all of us to read and journal through the book of John. A really sweet journal was provided to keep our thoughts. So the first day of reading and journaling was today and Linds and I thought we would keep a record on here of where God is showing Himself through this study.

So today was on John 1. There were several things in this chapter that stuck out to me, but I thought I would write about one of them.

As I was reading this chapter, I started noticing just how many different names are meant to represent Jesus. And really, John doesn't even mention Jesus' actual name until 16 or so verses in.

Check this out! I'm going to bold the different names.

1In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. 2He was with God in the beginning.
3Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. 4In him was life, and that life was the light of men. 5The light shines in the darkness, but the darkness has not understood[a] it.

6There came a man who was sent from God; his name was John. 7He came as a witness to testify concerning that light, so that through him all men might believe. 8He himself was not the light; he came only as a witness to the light. 9The true light that gives light to every man was coming into the world.[b]
10He was in the world, and though the world was made through him, the world did not recognize him. 11He came to that which was his own, but his own did not receive him. 12Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God— 13children born not of natural descent,[c] nor of human decision or a husband's will, but born of God.
14The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the One and Only,[d] who came from the Father, full of grace and truth.
15John testifies concerning him. He cries out, saying, "This was he of whom I said, 'He who comes after me has surpassed me because he was before me.' " 16From the fullness of his grace we have all received one blessing after another. 17For the law was given through Moses; grace and truth came through Jesus Christ. 18No one has ever seen God, but God the One and Only,[e][f]who is at the Father's side, has made him known.
19Now this was John's testimony when the Jews of Jerusalem sent priests and Levites to ask him who he was. 20He did not fail to confess, but confessed freely, "I am not the Christ.[g]"
21They asked him, "Then who are you? Are you Elijah?"
He said, "I am not."
"Are you the Prophet?"
He answered, "No."
22Finally they said, "Who are you? Give us an answer to take back to those who sent us. What do you say about yourself?"

23John replied in the words of Isaiah the prophet, "I am the voice of one calling in the desert, 'Make straight the way for the Lord.' "[h]

24Now some Pharisees who had been sent 25questioned him, "Why then do you baptize if you are not the Christ, nor Elijah, nor the Prophet?"
26"I baptize with[i] water," John replied, "but among you stands one you do not know. 27He is the one who comes after me, the thongs of whose sandals I am not worthy to untie."
28This all happened at Bethany on the other side of the Jordan, where John was baptizing.
29The next day John saw Jesus coming toward him and said, "Look, the Lamb of God, who takes away the sin of the world! 30This is the one I meant when I said, 'A man who comes after me has surpassed me because he was before me.' 31I myself did not know him, but the reason I came baptizing with water was that he might be revealed to Israel."

32Then John gave this testimony: "I saw the Spirit come down from heaven as a dove and remain on him. 33I would not have known him, except that the one who sent me to baptize with water told me, 'The man on whom you see the Spirit come down and remain is he who will baptize with the Holy Spirit.' 34I have seen and I testify that this is the Son of God."

35The next day John was there again with two of his disciples. 36When he saw Jesus passing by, he said, "Look, the Lamb of God!"

37When the two disciples heard him say this, they followed Jesus. 38Turning around, Jesus saw them following and asked, "What do you want?"
They said, "Rabbi" (which means Teacher), "where are you staying?"

39"Come," he replied, "and you will see."
So they went and saw where he was staying, and spent that day with him. It was about the tenth hour.

40Andrew, Simon Peter's brother, was one of the two who heard what John had said and who had followed Jesus. 41The first thing Andrew did was to find his brother Simon and tell him, "We have found the Messiah" (that is, the Christ). 42And he brought him to Jesus.
Jesus looked at him and said, "You are Simon son of John. You will be called Cephas" (which, when translated, is Peter[j]). 43The next day Jesus decided to leave for Galilee. Finding Philip, he said to him, "Follow me."

44Philip, like Andrew and Peter, was from the town of Bethsaida. 45Philip found Nathanael and told him, "We have found the one Moses wrote about in the Law, and about whom the prophets also wrote—Jesus of Nazareth, the son of Joseph."

46"Nazareth! Can anything good come from there?" Nathanael asked.
"Come and see," said Philip.

47When Jesus saw Nathanael approaching, he said of him, "Here is a true Israelite, in whom there is nothing false."

48"How do you know me?" Nathanael asked.
Jesus answered, "I saw you while you were still under the fig tree before Philip called you."

49Then Nathanael declared, "Rabbi, you are the Son of God; you are the King of Israel."

50Jesus said, "You believe[k] because I told you I saw you under the fig tree. You shall see greater things than that." 51He then added, "I tell you[l] the truth, you[m] shall see heaven open, and the angels of God ascending and descending on the Son of Man."

And this is just the beginning of the passage. Jesus is referred to in five or six different ways in the first 18 verses. I think there are like 8 more names after that. And this is all in chapter 1!

Why does John(the author) do this in the beginning thing? I'm not sure I've ever understood why John didn't just call Jesus by His name at the very beginning of his writing. Regardless, I think it's cool to look at these different ways of talking about Jesus. "The Word" reminds me of a couple sermons I've heard that have stuck with me. Their message was that just like words(seen) are what gives something concrete to what's in our brains(unseen), so does Jesus' life(seen) give us something to actually look at about what our God(unseen) is really like. This is hard for me to really wrap my head around though. I'm glad that Jesus would give us a concrete example of what it means to live with and for our God.

All these names in general remind me of a study Linds and her friend Melissa did together a couple years ago. Linds still references it and any time she does, I'm always struck by it. The study is called "Praying the names of God." Apparently, the Old Testament is stuffed full of different names for God. The study provides and defines these different names. Each one describes a different characteristic of our God. For example, there's one name--Yahweh Yirah(expect this word to be misspelled...), meaning God provides.

When I think of John 1, it kind of reminds me of that study because there are so many names. In exploring the answer to my own question posed toward the beginning, it makes me wonder:

How many names does it take for us to understand who He is? How many names does He have?
How many different descriptions are needed for me to understand what He's about?
I dunno. Maybe those aren't answerable questions...

Some other ones--
What are some names of Him that I don't know? What about Him don't I understand yet? What can I learn from the names others have given Him?

I do know that it's nice to be reminded at different points in my life of certain characteristics of Him that carry special importance at that time. For example, trusting God as my comforter has been really important with all the grief in my family over this last year.
I also know that seeing God as a Joyful Father was so amazing(and a view of God I'm not sure I'd really considered before) during the celebration of marriage.

So the names of Jesus. Maybe when reading through John, I can start seeing just more of what He is about. The names themselves seem like they could help unpack so much about Him---and I haven't even looked at much of what He actually did.

Well, I hope everyone is having an amazing and restful Saturday. Stay warm! If you're bored, some guys will be at La Fiesta at 6 and some girls are going to be at the movie theater at 4ish.

later!
-dave